Fear and Fame

by Philip Levine


Half an hour to dress, wide rubber hip boots, 

gauntlets to the elbow, a plastic helmet 

like a knight’s but with a little glass window 

that kept steaming over, and a respirator 

to save my smoke-stained lungs. I would descend 

step by slow step into the dim world 

of the pickling tank and there prepare 

the new solutions from the great carboys 

of acids lowered to me on ropes — all from a recipe 

I shared with nobody and learned from Frank O’Mera 

before he went off to the bars on Vernor Highway 

to drink himself to death. A gallon of hydrochloric 

steaming from the wide glass mouth, a dash 

of pale nitric to bubble up, sulphuric to calm, 

metals for sweeteners, cleansers for salts, 

until I knew the burning stew was done. 

Then to climb back, step by stately step, the adventurer 

returned to the ordinary blinking lights 

of the swingshift at Feinberg and Breslin’s 

First-Rate Plumbing and Plating with a message 

from the kingdom of fire. Oddly enough 

no one welcomed me back, and I'd stand 

fully armored as the downpour of cold water 

rained down on me and the smoking traces puddled 

at my feet like so much milk and melting snow. 

Then to disrobe down to my work pants and shirt, 

my black street shoes and white cotton socks, 

to reassume my nickname, strap on my Bulova, 

screw back my wedding ring, and with tap water 

gargle away the bitterness as best I could. 

For fifteen minutes or more I’d sit quietly 

off to the side of the world as the women 

polished the tubes and fixtures to a burnished purity 

hung like Christmas ornaments on the racks 

pulled steadily toward the tanks I’d cooked. 

Ahead lay the second cigarette, held in a shaking hand, 

as I took into myself the sickening heat to quell heat, 

a lunch of two Genoa salami sandwiches and Swiss cheese 

on heavy peasant bread baked by my Aunt Tsipie, 

and a third cigarette to kill the taste of the others. 

Then to arise and dress again in the costume 

of my trade for the second time that night, stiffened 

by the knowledge that to descend and rise up 

from the other world merely once in eight hours is half 

what it takes to be known among women and men.


Photo Credit: Protective Clothing



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